oh and

[blank] who i've been recently getting 'along' with and doing the weird kinda 'friend' thing where you still do choice things that you liked in the relationship, the only things that you liked doing in the relationship and it's been ok, but in the back of my mind, next to all the random jeopardy knowledge is the little ghost of relationships past who squeeks in my ear and says she knows how this will end,

and she was right.

and that saddens me more than the break-up did.

we were at our core, at our prime, at the height of the [blank]andsarah team really good friends. there are things i can tell him and all that stuff that i don't really have anyone else to tell them to. i know he feels the same, and this kinda sucks.

but i'm done enabling him.

that's the new mantra.

i just caught a glimpse of the little ghost and she's is smiling through tears.