December slush filled
thoughts I thought
about staying
up here
with you
a loft of our past
after promising I’d
never do that again
after promising
we should never
do that again
and just be happy with
the us now
but every once in a while
after going to bed
leaving the lights on
moving through the walls
there’s a shadow in the mirror
and I know it’s you
it’s time to go home
to get things done,
get things right,
I fuck up
always do
buried in the words
about us and you
and when Christmas
comes I’ll lay my head
resting in shame
watching seasons change
and I’ll think of you
and while I swim
through time alone
you will cross my mind
shadows tossed over
the alarm clock
rain down my back
your laugh lines
in my mind
and we will
build walls leading
back to each other
come home with me
and I will promise
not to
leave you
again