And before I left I thought
about waking you
sleep filled and downed
your breath one and laid between
nestled between
my own

I thought
maybe I should stay here
tonight (forever)?
maybe it’s good here

but if you think
you’re the only one
with black dogs
demons and
those before
you’re not alone.

they follow me too

I promise.

and there’s nothing about this
whatever this is
you and I or us
two beings floating
guts streaming and scared
shitless

and the insane perpetual manner
in which I am falling
into
you and I or us

that will be easy

(but maybe
so much easier
than before?)

this is just
you or I or us
and I am just

trying to fall
as hard
(hurt)
less
as possible

and yet
when you look
at me
eyes deep blue pools

I can’t help but think
this is all
you and I or us
there ever was
to be.