where are all the cigar smoking chicks? i thought i'd find some at babeville but no....definately hat wearing though. god. the concert was SO good, Ani was SO good, the best i've ever seen at the best venue i've ever seen...

gob was sick (poor thing) and i think truly struggled through the concert bummed by fph which creates some weird mixture of feeelings in me both that she puts so much into him (doesn't admit it) and he i don't know...that's the feeling...i don't know what his deal is i just know it hurts and that hurts because i'm sensitive, a great big pudding cup other peoples pain hitting me inside me, all of me until i eat my way out of it.

my sister came and drank a lot of wine and was happy and dancing and sweet though attached to the phone as always.

it was great. untouchable face, finally.

then we went to the bar after, stayed out til 300 i get up at 600 start work all groggyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....

xxx stops by.

i don't know that i can write about that yet.

or ever.

i don't know if i should.

it's too soon. all too soon.