so

i. don't. even. want. to. give. any. more. enabling. words.

but...

i wrote something really liberating and REALLY mean last night. i'd like to post it but only in a vindictive way and the things he does that then makes me respond in that way is enabling. and i can use that word because he doesn't know what it means. which is a yardstick for the future. indeed. any dateable man must know the common psychological term 'enabling' that way when i say it, and refuse to do it they will know what i'm saying and what i'm refusing.

there are random eminem songs floating in and out and in and out of my head. you can guess them. one is about throwing up and one is about kim. huh. weird.

i had the best day of my life with NORMAL BUSINESS MEN (who knew? it's not about getting drunk and making raunchy boob jokes in front of me. there are business people who don't swear and actually DO STUFF IN THE FIRST MEETING).

ANYWAY

i will end this thread of my life with the following...(props to sinead, you really have to HEAR it to get it, but i can't grasp the whole upload a song thing, even with GOB's step by step DYC directions...i suck...) so. with this. goodbye. and good luck. or whatever. nhfjdshfou7yuhfku&*&**()((&(*&F*&(*FEWYFHFN.

ERG.

Phew.

This is the last day of our acquaintance
I will meet you later in somebody's office
I'll talk but you won't listen to me
I know what your answer will be
I know you don't love me anymore
You used to hold my hand when the plane took off
Two years ago there just seemed so much more
And I don't know what happened to our love
Today's the day
Our friendship has been stale
And we will meet later to finalize the details
Two years ago the seed was planted
And since then you have taken me for granted
But this is the last day of our acquaintance
I will meet you later in somebody's office
I'll talk but you won't listen to me
I know your answer already
But this is the last day of our acquaintance
I will meet you later in somebody's office
I'll talk but you won't listen to me
I know your answer already
I know your answer already
I know your answer already