Saturday, November 04, 2006

ray-isms

ray reminds me of carl however, it's the ONLY thing on tv that isn't about sunken ships, goth cyberbergs, european soccer matches or a slew of weird chinese sitcom game shows something something and it's 330 in the morning and i should be sleeping BUT i had a nap yesterday afternoon when i promised i wouldn't and now i'm all kinda sleep freaked.

sooooo...

ray it is and a plunging back to a point of i thought perfection destroyed in a manner i don't know i'll ever understand, but certainly can't understand this soon.

and the freakin email won't work.

Friday, November 03, 2006

TBD: Chapter One


Are you sad?” Charlie asks

“No” lies the bartender

“Yes you are” Jane pipes up “you look sad, aww”

“It’s not like you broke up or you’ll never see her.” The bartender smiles and turns away thinking of the void.

Charlie claims she has given up on love. “It has only ever fucked me around.”

“Stop looking for it.” the bartender tells her


-- The Bartender Diaries...


And I have to say, and I don't know why, but this is the funniest funniest exchange I have ever read. And it's like real hard to make me laugh, particulary in print...so...we shall all applaud David...God, it's funny but maybe only because I know David. It's such a David thing to say. Funny as fuck tho.
For Cancer today:

"A body in motion tends to stay that way, and baby, you're moving! Funny how that initial step triggers all kinds of other actions (and reactions). Now that you've got all this momentum, ride it to its logical conclusion. "

and, entirely contrary...

i'm going to bed. :)
you said you weren't gonna read this any more

but i have a sneaky suspicion you just might...

don't be jealous/mad/upset/uncomfortable with the things i do.

you know i love you need you touch and are touched by you more than anyone else.

you're my best friend. i can't replace that with anyone.

s
"We went there for everything we needed. We went there when thirsty, of course, and when hungry, and when tired. We went there when happy, to celebrate, and when sad, to sulk...We went there when we didn't know what we needed, hoping someone might tell us...Most of all we went there when we needed to be found.

Along with sancutuary, Steve provided nightly lessons in democracy, or the special plurality of alcohol. Standing in the middle of his barroom, you could watch men and women from all strata of society and education abusing another. You could hear the poorest man in town discussing "market volatility" with the president of the New York Stock Exchange, or the local librarian lecturing a New York Yankees Hall of Famer about the wisdom of choking up on the bat. You could hear a feebleminded porter say something so off-the-wall, and yet so wise, that a college philospohy professor would jot it on a napkin and tuck it in his pocket...you could hear bartenders -- in between making bets and mixing Pink Squirrels -- talk like philospher kings."

JR Moehringer, "The Tender Bar"
ok i lied

i miss the way you jump up in the morning, wander down the incomplete stairs (stares?) and grab a cigarette, placing it between your lips, with index finger and thumb, staggering, wandering back upstairs, unlit, sitting on the edge of the bed, lighting it, the crisp teeny "stcccrummp" of the lighter, and beginning some inconsequential story from last night or the night before or something i said or something you said

with cigarette

placed between two lips i would rather be placed between and bobbing and circling at every harsh linguistic emphasis...

i miss that. sigh. and like 3 more weeks to go. sonofabitch indeed.

so i'm in a country entirely alone entirely away from where i'm not alone and everythings oooook

i think i have a beer belly. this is problematic.

the juxtaposition of my obsession with the possible beer belly and being in a country so entirely different from the country of origin although i've been here before so much before i'm almost not surpirsed upon my arrival...is kinda insane.

i miss the smell of my room and the smell of d in the morning

but other than that

i'm oook. not good. but ok.

my eyes are almost closed....

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